Lately I’ve been looking at the blogging experience from a different perspective other than improving my writing skills through interpreting what’s happening. A group therapy like perspective, as if we are all one family, traveling on the same journey heading to the same destination. Every now and then it’s someone’s turn to speak out his mind and we all have to listen to what he has to say. If he needs some kind of help that is within our capability we do not hesitate to offer him the help he needs.
Sometimes the benefits that come from someone just speaking out his mind are way beyond our expectations. These individual thoughts when translated into words written on a post for us to read can be full of inspiration not just for the writer of these thoughts, but for everyone reading them.
Ever since I grew up, I have been always assuming that everyone around me is good until proven otherwise. In religion or spirituality, it is a sign of mercy to think of the intentions of the people around you as good, and wisdom to assume that God wants nothing but the best for us. As time went by, it turns out that there is a thin line between assuming good from the people around you, and being a complete idiot. It’s nice to assume that the people around you are well intentioned, but not applicable at all times. Some circumstances require the complete opposite. Like being in a rat race for example, while assuming that the people around you are nothing more than rats.
Another thing has been occupying my mind lately is the obsession with perfectionism. Besides from having an OCD, because I believe that we all suffer from OCD with varying forms. But for me whenever I get involved in any activity, I cannot tolerate the fact that it can be done better without doing so. If I am required to record a music track that I have written for example, I am prepared to record it a million times until the outcome is 100% clear of any flaws. While those flaws may not even be recognized by the listeners.
But thinking of this perfectionism issue on a larger scale, like daily decisions that involve arranging priorities, relationship issues, or even choosing your life partner, it can be devastating! So I am trying to overcome this problem by acknowledging that it is part of who we are as human beings to make mistakes, forget, fall into sins, etc., without making a fuss out of everything.
I just finished my first week at my training for the job as a Biomedical Engineer in a large hospital. It’s so far very interesting. I follow my trainer everywhere he goes. We get daily calls and complaints from different departments about machines that are not working properly, and so we head to fix those machines as soon as possible. But his work appears to me somehow very careless. I don’t know if it’s my OCD manifesting itself or is it my conscious that is awake. The guy appears knowledgeable and all, and he fixes the machines, but he doesn’t make sure that the problems doesn’t persist. There’s always a 50% chance the machine will malfunction once again, and I actually witnessed it with my own eyes during this week!
I’m still new and all, and I know it’s too early to jump to conclusions, but nevertheless I’m spending some time learning something new, which is my goal. But if I was the boss of that trainer, I wouldn’t keep him in that position, just saying! I wouldn’t accept the work of someone so careless, or at least I would do something about it other than firing him.
But all in all I am thankful. I am thankful for finding a job, learning something new, having a bunch of amazing fellow bloggers here reading my nonsense. Everyday I get to discover new bloggers who turn out to be more awesome than I expected. My working hours has caused the number of cigarettes I smoke to shrink, which is awesome! So there’s lots of reasons to feel happy, optimistic, hopeful, etc.
There’s this famous quote from the famous American Beauty that I think about often. “Its hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world.” – Lester Burnham.
Thank you for reading!