Dawn of Thoughts

I feel vulnerable, confused, insecure and full of hate. Why? Well its a long story that started with hope and ended with misery. We all have to grow up someday and realize that no one is as he/she seems. Who seems like a Preacher acts like an Atheist. Who seems like the closest person to me acts like my enemy. I may be suffering from psychological issues. But the truth is, we are all mentally ill; we tend to do everything wrong to the people around us, but when they do to us the same we become rebellion and refuse to handle things. We have zero tolerance towards one another. Sometimes its the arrogance that takes over us, preventing us from even listening to each other. Each person sees what he chooses to see, listens to what makes him feel better and speaks, in his perspective, only wisdom.

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Scratching the Surface

The political situation nowadays in Egypt has reached a pinnacle in the relationship between Islamic parties and every other political party. When the Egyptian people voted for Mohamed Morsi, they were expecting him to isolate himself from the Muslim Brotherhood, such that he could represent all of the Egyptians, rather than being biased towards his political party. That way he would achieve the anticipated political compatibility, and shut the mouths of his opposition or anyone claiming that Islamists are not capable of achieving such duty. And that’s exactly what he promised to fulfill back then while being a presidential candidate. Lots of promises were made during his campaign, upon which 13.2 million citizens gave him their votes in the election.

But what president Morsi has been doing ever since he took over the presidency, is making sure there is an abundance and dominance for the MB or Islamic parties over other political parties. Instead of isolating himself from the MB, he’s allowing them to interfere in all country’s affairs. Most recently the Egyptian constitution was formed under the supervision of a committee consisting of members from Islamic backgrounds. Non Islamic members of the constitutional committee withdrew from the committee over differences between them and the Islamic members. Their withdrawal did not affect the committee’s decision to form a constitution, although it had only Islamic members.

This act triggered resentments among the people, allowing them to question president Morsi’s promises concerning the compatibility of the constitutional committee.

But president Morsi did not pay attention to their resentments, and the constitution was formed, with people from liberal and non Islamic tendencies refusing to acknowledge it as the new Egyptian constitution. That caused a major division among the Egyptian people, creating two major sides, Anti MB and Pro MB.

The unconcern of Morsi towards those refusing the constitution rose the annoyance among them. They protested in Tahrir square for several weeks, demanding a compatible constitutional assembly. But Morsi kept neglecting their demands claiming that those were thugs aiming to hinder the productivity of the country. Eventually there was a clash between them and the security forces that lead to several deaths and serious injuries. Yes, this occurred a few months ago during Morsi’s presidency.

He began speaking from the presidential palace in Ittihadiya surrounded by his supporters, instead of speaking from Tahrir square in front of the thousands gathered there.

Tahrir protesters (Anti MB) decided to move their peaceful strike to Ittihadiya palace, in an attempt to win Morsi’s consideration. That’s when Morsi’s supporters, a group of religiously motivated people (Pro MB), attacked the Anti MB protesters with huge amount of rage, tortured whoever fell in their hands in the name of God. This incident was later called the Ittihadiya incident, which I wrote about here. With no one being questioned or accused of what happened there, a similar incident has just occurred a few days ago, but this time the Pro MB were the ones brutally attacked by the Anti MB, considering it a payback for the Ittihadiya incident.

Unfortunately, Egypt nowadays is on the brink of a civil war. Police forces are still absent from the streets, unless there’s an opposition strike, in that case the forces would gather in front of them seeking their dispersion by any means necessary. Not to mention security forces still to this day aim their guns at the eyes of protesters. Live ammunition, cartridge, tear gas, are all used in dispersing protesters. Robberies, Rapes, Murders, are all part of our daily news feed. When president Morsi is confronted by the media, he keeps talking in denial to the seriousness of the situation, claiming that everything is under control, and that the media is doing a great effort in distorting reality.

Many Egyptians today feel nostalgic for the Mubarak era. Although only a few months have passed since Morsi’s presidency started, but those few months were sufficient for many Egyptians to reconsider Mubarak. Mubarak’s words before stepping aside were: “I want to leave the presidency, but I fear the MB will take over the country.” Back then those words did not ring a bell, and the Egyptians insisted that Mubarak leaves the presidency right away. But today his words make perfect sense. He had control over the country in terms of security, and handling its affairs. No doubt that there was great amount of corruption, but somehow he knew how provide stability.

Another reason for the Egyptians to reconsider Mubarak, is that they were united. There was no major differences between the Egyptians like the ones existing today. Their unity against the Mubarak regime is what caused it to be overthrown quickly. Today this unity is absent, making it very hard to overthrow the MB from power.

A satirical viewpoint at today’s situation; Mubarak is currently in jail accused of killing protesters protesting against him. Morsi currently has his hands stained with blood of protesters that were killed after he took over the presidency, but yet he’s out of jail sitting on Egypt’s throne. This gives us a vivid example of how life can be so cruel sometimes, but always with a lesson learned.

May Allah be with us all


Update to my State

Greetings my fellow bloggers! Last week I had the privilege to join the Green Embers Rome Construction Crew. Today I can’t believe I completed 60 min on the treadmill, was so easy thank God it wasn’t that much of a deal. I did it with the help of Community again, this series is just hilarious! After finishing my 60 min I took a shower, then I rewarded myself with a brand new pack of cigarettes! In case there’s any kids reading, smoking kills, especially after working out. So do not try this at home, please.

I’m thinking of posting une poste hebdomadaire, french for a weekly post, updating you guys about my health & fitness state. For my Thyrotoxicosis I take a daily dose of 40 mg Carbimazole, which helps in regulating the excess secretion of the free T3 & T4 hormones. The excess secretion of the free T3 & T4 hormones, is what makes me feel hot all the time, regardless to the outside temperature. For my tachycardia I take a daily dose of 30 mg Propranolol, which helps in regulating my fast heart rate, and brings it back to normal. Finally for my OCD, I take a daily dose of 75 mg Anafranil, which helps in controlling the OCD. Wow I sure sound like an old man!

Anyway take care guys, until next week, anyone wishing to join the Green Embers Rome Construction Crew, is more than welcome :)



Circle of life

Everyday we learn something new, something good, something true.. For a moment when we get to use it, but when exactly? We have no clue..

With a hidden force driving us towards tomorrow, we submit ourselves overwhelmed by our sorrow..

What is it that you want? What is it that you need? What is it that you’re prepared to fight for indeed?

Einstein fought for relativity, Newton fought for gravity.. All we fight for today brings us nothing but misery..

We look at our past and talk with proud.. Until we reach to a point that we’re lost in the crowd..

Its okay to stay, its okay to lay.. With no one to blame for wasting your day..

Think of it as a trophy, or think of it as a duty.. Its all about perspectives in conquering your enemy..

May none of us be neither an oppressor nor oppressed.. We all live in the same bubble, the same home, the same nest..

Happy Mothers Day!

Today is Mothers day! I’ve been talking about my mom lately, how important she is in my life. She had to travel to our home country yesterday, leaving me alone in our apartment for 10 whole days! At first I was happy for a while I had everything for myself, but then I felt this void that she left. Gotta admit no matter how old you are, you just can’t get enough of that maternal hug which brings you instant peace.

I’m not gonna boast too much today about her, you probably have heard enough of that in the last two days. Umm.. Here’s last year’s Happy Mother’s Day post just in case you missed that one.

God bless all the Mothers around the world :)


Spiritual Assurance

There’s a lovely Hadith Qudsi, (Sacred Hadith) sub-category of “Hadith” which are sayings of Muhammad, that we Muslims regard them as words of God, that says:

What is yours you shall have despite your weaknesses. What is not yours you won’t have despite your might.

It emphasizes that fact that we human beings sometimes worry too much about what might happen, what we may or may not achieve, without acknowledging that everything is moving upon God’s will.

This doesn’t mean that we are supposed to lay back, relax and do nothing since everything is predestined, that would be considered apathy and neglectfulness. But we are rather supposed to chase our goals and dreams with this spiritual assurance, that whatever we encounter is upon God’s plan and not ours, and therefore for our best.

The Renegade Rulebook

I woke up to this song this morning, in that lingering space between conscious and asleep, where one foot was still in whatever I was dreaming about, and the other foot was itching to get into the kitchen to make a cup of tea. You know that place? Where, if somebody were to ask you a life or death question that needed an immediate answer, you would probably mumble “Yellow”, or “Seventeen”, or “My purse is in the oven.”, and roll in the opposite direction.

I woke up to this song slowly.

It’s funny how some people hear the music, while others only hear the words.

I always hear words, and two or three lines into the song I realized I haven’t always been a beautiful girl.

Actually, there was a long period of time where I knew what the word beautiful meant, and I could only identify it in…

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Its amazing how one’s mood can change so dramatically from one minute to the next. One minute you’re happily flying above the clouds, receiving everything with optimism and joy. The next minute your soul turns so ill, feels like you need a punching bag so badly just to keep hitting it as hard as you can to release some trapped energy.

What’s even more amazing is the reason that triggers your anger. It is believed that a woman by the name Helen of Troy is what triggered the anger and started the Trojan war that lasted 10 years!

Women by instinct have some sort of hidden power that is when unleashed can cause irreversible damage. Especially if that woman is your ex, damage possibility doubles in an instance. I’ve seen so many posts that warn about talking with your ex, but I refuse to believe I am one of those people. I like to believe I am special.

That’s when reality manifests itself hitting me in the face, referring me to grow up, or else I still need more suffering to understand that I’m not that special.

But my mood has calmed down eventually, although the inflicted wounds are too deep and often leave a scar. Gotta be careful though next time. I don’t know what it is exactly about women that makes us melt in front of them! Seriously its so unethical. You women need to understand your power. With great power comes great responsibility, and you have a hell of a power over men. Just try to use it wisely without tampering with our emotions, that’s all I’m asking.

May none of us (men) ever stand in the way of a woman’s wrath.. Amen

May Allah be with us all


Update to my state

Greetings fellow bloggers! Yesterday was an amazing day, full of inspiring posts on my reader’s tab. But that’s not the only reason why it was so “amazing”. After months of laziness and lack of energy, I actually got to move my ass to my treadmill and start walking! To be honest it was so easier than I expected it to be. I underestimated the amount of effort you can exert on a treadmill while watching your favorite TV show! It was absolutely fascinating how I completely forgot about my walking legs and burst into laughter while watching Community!

Another good news I’m so happy to announce is that by starting to rebuild my fitness again, I am now an official member of the Green Embers Rome Construction Crew! yaaaaay :D

So that’s basically why I’m so excited this morning! :)

Anyhow, click on the link above to know more about this membership and of course you are welcome to join! :)

Alright, I’m out now. I wish you all the best, or as GE would say, “Keep it Green” :D